I am going to write as if I were actually writing a letter to my younger self. Let me preface this by saying that I am going to be completely honest here.
Letter to me,
Hey Katrina! It’s the beginning of 7th grade and things look crazy. You are a cheerleader this year and you are noticing boys more. There are a few things I want you to remember.
The first thing I want you to remember is that ‘you are worthy.’ No matter what anyone else says or does, you are worthy. I know that Dadu is pretty absent right now and when he is present, he isn’t the man you love as daddy. You are special regardless of his lack of ability to show it to you. Just because he doesn’t give you attention doesn’t mean that you need to find it elsewhere. Boys are NOT necessary to this stage of life. You are going to get your heart broken way too many times. Why? Because you love too easily and too completely. The people you give your true self to are not ready for that kind of commitment. So, focus on yourself. Don’t let everyone or everything else get in the way of loving yourself.
Next, I need you to focus on your school. While being the smartest in the class is not what life is about. Making sure that you focus on what can take you further is. Don’t get so caught in making friends, finding boys, and being popular that you forget about your future. Your life is going to be so hard if you don’t look beyond today and this year. I want this letter to be a warning that you can survive in this world and be happy with the life you have been given. Just don’t forget to make a list and put things of priority first. Don’t choose the wrong things though!!
FRIENDS. They are so precious! Be honest, be dependable, be compassionate. However, don’t let anybody walk all over you. A good friend is one that reciprocates what you give to them. They are not always expecting you to perform and never have to give back.
Love your Mama like there is no other. She is fighting a battle right now and trying so hard to be strong. You wouldn’t know it looking at her right now, would you? She is a strong figure, isn’t she? Always working, always providing, always loving. Mama is going to push you to be honest, trustworthy, hardworking, and a woman that you will never be able to amount to. But listen to her and soak up everything she tells you because those words and time are so precious.
Spend every minute with her you can get. Ask her to do your hair, tell her secrets, ask her to eat lunch. Make her feel like a queen on Mother’s Day. Don’t go one day without telling her you love her. Make sure she knows how special she is because she is going to give up so much for you in the years to come. Say thank you every chance you get. Hit your knees and beg the Lord to keep her healthy a little longer. Most of all, hug her. EVERY. CHANCE. YOU. GET.
Dadu. Don’t give up on him. You have always been his biggest fan and he is going to need you one day. He is going to need your shoulder and strength because life is going to get real tough. Don’t give up though. One day in the not so near future, he is going to see the error of his ways. Wait for him. He will be one of your best friends. He is going to find Jesus like you would have never thought. You will still be his little Scooter, I promise.
Spend time with him. Don’t forget that he is dealing with some tough things too. Don’t get so caught up in keeping up with what’s popular in high school because you are going to miss building a relationship with him. Life is going to hit him like a line drive coming from home plate and he is going to need some support. Remember that he looks up to you and he hasn’t changed just yet.
Katrina, don’t give up. Don’t let life defeat you and push you down. You are so much stronger than you realize. A strong man will one day tell you this ‘God only puts His strongest soldiers in the toughest battles.’ Remember that, because it is the honest truth. It will definitely help you through many a struggle. Love like there is no tomorrow, plan like today is the end, laugh like no one is around, smile because it feels good, write down your feelings and keep them safe, share your love of Jesus no matter what they think, don’t hide your face from the world because it’s beautiful in His eyes.
Love yourself, shine real bright, and NEVER. EVER. GIVE. UP.
What would you say to your younger self, if you could go back and tell her just 1 thing??
Love ya ❤️ Bye Y’all!